I will not give in to retail therapy, I will not give in to retail therapy...

Who am I kidding? I already have.

Life's been dull; my bestestestest buddy I had down here in S. FL has ventured on to bigger and better things via school. Sad and lonely times ahead. [/emo]

That whole thing has me thinking about school myself. I know I need to go back and just finish it. No more breaks, no more random MOVING, no more wishing for greener grass on the other side. Ya know? I just gotta suck it up and get my degree no matter where it is. But I feel like I get this inspiration more often than I should. It's like... go to school, get sick of it, go on vacation, fall in love with the place I went on vacation to, and then move there. I gotta stop doing that. For once I need to stop saying "I want" and start thinking "I need."

Oh come on, Cristine. We've been through this before.
What?
You set goals. You're good at that. But then you get distracted and don't see them entirely through.
So what? I'm living my life. Making new experiences, seeing different places. It's better to do this while I'm young, right?
You're not getting any younger...
What's that supposed to mean?
It doesn't matter. This is just something you can't keep getting into and falling out of.
Oh don't be dramatic. I'll do it. I'll make the plunge, settle down somewhere. I'll do what's best for me in the long run, even if it's not ideal.
Mhmm. Start thinking with me, your head. Stop thinking with your heart.
You think that's easy to do? This is me we're talking about. How about this. You let me know how. K? I'm all ears.

The options are in my head, and I'm thinking.